Poem for my valentine
Before you think about coming me near
remember that affection is my greatest fear
you might believe in my outer kindness
it´s just a lie that leads you to blindness
In some way my meaning is to fool you completely
make you weak, vulnerable and debilitate you discreetly
another part of me is the opposite of that
in pure panic trying to overcome and dissolve the mortal combat
I can´t and won´t apologize for what I'm about to say
it´s just a burden I've picked up on the way
and that´s the price I have to pay
Once in my life I´ve experience and embraced my love
in a way that I'm actually proud of
the emptiness of losing it all to what must be forever
makes me incapable of feeling you, ever
Whatever I make you believe, I won´t really be there
whatever I do or say to you is really unfair
Still, try not to despair, things will improve
but the fact that a part of me always will be gone you can´t remove
Yet, I'll try to convince you the other way around
make you feel like you´re a longing that I've found
I even think I can miss you when we are apart
But In the end you will Never truly own my heart
Time will fill out the wounds.
You will improve and the wrong paths that you´ve sadly- but wisly, walked, will shutten again for you to not rewalk them. Only to have them as reminders.
We learn out of life. And we should see that as a gift instead of ripping up the scars over and over. Life is a mystery, so is Love. Try not to overthink it. Just be kindly aware of the trapps and I think you can find the balance.
So anyway I love you and excuse my bad english. Kiss and a hug.
